The idea that someone is going to couples' therapy but also spending time on dating apps and taking out secret credit cards—the mind boggles! What is wrong with people. Anyways: I hope you have a lovely time in Bali. When I was there I stayed in Seminyak and had a lovely time. Re: booze—sounds like you're being way too hard on yourself tbh. Alcohol is great; it's only a problem if we're using it to change our mood. Once I stopped doing that, I started getting more out of alcohol than it was getting out of me.